I WONDER NOW IF IT WASN'T FOR MY PAST HOW WOULD I BE... WOULD I REMAIN THE SAME OR WOULD HAVE BEEN TOTALLY DIFFERENT. BUT WE CANT TAKE BACK WHATS ALREADY GONE ITS GONE FOREVER TOTALLY DEMOLISHED ALL I CAN DO IS JUST HOPE FOR A BETTER TOMORROW. ITS SO HARD TO LET GO ANYTHING PERIOD.
SO LATELY ME & MY GIRL BEEN HAVING OUR UP'S & DOWN'S ITS JUST SO HARD TO QUOTE WITH ALL THIS YOU KNOW. YOU KNOW WHEN ITS THAT TIME IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP WHEN WE START TO DOUBT IF ITS REALLY LOVE OR JUST A STRONG FEELING. YEAH I GUESS ITS THAT POINT WITH US, BUT I KNOW WHATS IN MY HEART I KNOW HOW I FEEL & I KNOW WHATS REAL OR FAKE.
JUST HOPE SHE KNOWS I HOPE IM NOT LETTING MY BATTLES INTERFERE WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP IM NOT TRYING TO HURT NOBODY DEFINITELY NOT HER OR MOST OF MY HEART. SEE THATS ONE THING PEOPLE OFTEN TEND TO DO WE FIND EVERY LITTLE REASON TO BLAME OUR PARTNERS FOR SOMETHING THAT WE CANT GET RIGHT. ITS LIKE WE SET OURSELVES UP FOR THE WORST.
YOU KNOW I LEARNED ONE THING BEING WITH MY BABY THAT SHE SHOWED ME THAT WE DON'T HAVE TO ALWAYS BE PERFECT. CAUSE I KNOW I HAVE A LOT OF CONS TO MYSELF SHE ACCEPTS ALL OF THEM. SHE DOESN'T FAULT ME FOR THEM CAUSE SHE KNOWS MAN IS NOT MADE PERFECT.
A LOT OF TIMES I FIND MYSELF WANTING HER TO HURT ME CAUSE IM SO USED TO THAT ENDING BUT EVERY TIME SHE JUST LEAVE IT ALONE & IM NOT USED TO THAT. I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE RIGHT NOW CAN AGREE WITH THIS. THATS HOW YOU KNOW YOU FOUND THAT SPECIAL SOMEBODY CAUSE THEY CAN COMPLETELY COME IN YOUR LIFE IN CHANGE A ROAD THAT HAS BEEN DAMAGED TO SOMETHING NEW.
HOW DO WE REACT TO NEW? BETTER YET HOW DO WE ACCEPT THAT EVERYBODY IS NOT THE SAME? WELL I DON'T KNOW ANSWER TO THESE QUESTIONS BECAUSE I STILL FINDING THE ANSWER.
PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES YES WE DO BUT REPEATEDLY THE SAME MISTAKES ARE UNACCEPTABLE. YOU MAKE A MISTAKE YOU TAKE WHATS BEING THROWN AT YOU & YOU LEARN FROM IT. AND IF WE DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET WHATS OUT OF IT WE ASK, SO WE WANT BE STUCK IN A WORLD OF CONFUSION . THATS HOW PROBLEMS DWELL IN RELATIONSHIPS WE TRY TO DO THIS THING ON OUR OWN SOME CAN BE DONE THAT WAY. BUT SOMETIMES EVERYBODY NEEDS A HAND.
YOU KNOW ME YOU GUYS!! IM GOING TO SAY THIS I CANT ALWAYS BE THE MOST OPEN ABOUT THINGS I FIND MYSELF WRITING MOST OF THE TIMES BECAUSE ITS SO MUCH EASIER FOR ME. BUT THATS NOT ALWAYS GOOD WRITING ABOUT IT WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT SOMETIMES, I CAN HIDE MY FEELINGS INSIDE & THINK ITS ALL OVER AN DONE BUT WHEN I WAKE UP THE NEXT DAY. I GOT THE SAME PROBLEM. IM LEARNING SLOWLY.
JUST SOMETHING FOR HER: BABY I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH SAYING DOES THREE WORDS TO YOU I KNOW COMES A LOT OF RESPONSIBILITY BEHIND THAT. SO I LOVE YOU AN IM WILLING TO DO ANYTHING THERE IS TO SHOW YOU THAT I JUST DON'T SAY DOES WORDS JUST BECAUSE I KNOW HOW TO SAY THEM. I TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY OF BEING YOUR MAN. WITH MY LIFE I TAKE MY HEART I GIVE IT YOU LET IT BE KNOWN THAT IM NOT SCARED TO STEP IN THAT PLACE. MY HEART REPRESENTS EVERYTHING MY LOYALTY, DIGNITY, RESPECT, COURAGE, ETC... BUT MOST OF ALL MY LIFE. I WILL THROW IT OUT THERE, PUT IT ON THE LINE FOR YOU, I WILL RISK IT. IM NOT TRYING TO IMPRESS YOU WITH MY WORDS BECAUSE WHAT IM SPEAKING RIGHT NOW ITS MORE THEN JUST WORDS IT HAS WELL GOOD MEANING BEHIND IT. I KNOW YOU FEEL THE SAME FOR ME CAUSE WHEN YOU TELL ME I FEEL IT.
I ALWAYS WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I KNOW WE COME FROM TWO DIFFERENT BACKGROUNDS BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN NOTHING TO ME AT ALL. YOU KNOW HOW SOME PEOPLE SAY YOU CAN'T POSSIBLY BE SERIOUS ABOUT THIS OR SOME SAY YA'LL JUST DON'T FIT EACH OTHER/ LOOK RIGHT TOGETHER. YOU KNOW I COULD CARELESS ABOUT THAT BECAUSE LOVE HAPPENS IN THE MOST UNPREDICTABLE SITUATION.
IM GOING TO BE THERE FOR YOU THROUGH EVERYTHING I PROMISE TO YOU I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU LONELY OR COLD HIGH & DRY. I PROMISE TO BE THERE THROUGH OUR THICK & THIN RAINY OR SUNNY. IM JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT WHENEVER YOU FEEL YOU NEED SOMEBODY TO LEAN ON OR WALK WITH IM HERE YOUR SHIELD, YOUR AMOUR I CAN BE THAT. I CAN BE YOUR PROTECTION.
FOREVER MY LADY IS WHAT YOU ARE. FOREVER YOUR MAN IS WHAT I WILL BE.
THE MAN ABOVE: LORD I THANK YOU FOREVER THING YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH. I THANK YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE PUT IN MY LIFE ( MY DEAREST SON ). I THANK YOU FOR CREATING THAT SPECIAL LADY JUST FOR ME. i THANK YOU MATURING ME GIVING ME THE WISDOM. STRENGTHEN ME UP MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, SPIRITUALITY & PHYSICAL. LORD I GUESS WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS I LOVE YOU I KNOW WHEN THERES NO ONE I CAN ALWAYS DEPEND ON YOU TO SEE ME THROUGH.
Psalms 23:4 states:
"though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For you are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they confort me."TO MY READERS: IF YOU FIND SOMEONE ABLE TO CLEAN A TARNISHED YOU (JUST SAYING) AND THEY LET YOU KNOW THAT YOUR ABLE TO STUMBLE ACROSS SOMEONE LIKE YOURSELF OR ANOTHER HUMAN BEING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL COMPLETELY HAPPY FEEL THAT LOVE MYST ALL OVER AGAIN YOU FOUND SOMETHING WORTH PUTTING YOUR ALL IN. KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WHATS REALLY LOVE & WHATS A MAD OBSESSION. AND KNOW THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
IM OFFICIALLY COMING TO A CLOSING SO TAKE WHAT I SAID IN TO CONSIDERATION READ IT, STUDY IT, & USE IT.
I LOVE YOU ALL.....
